Do you guys ever feel like you want to completely reinvent yourself? I think I’m beyond that point right now. To be honest, I just want to suppress the person I’ve been for the last three years and create some new identity that isn’t emotionally drained from carrying all this baggage. I am worn out from always trying to solve my problems. Consciously keeping up a positive attitude is taxing but I’m too fucking introspective to push my feelings down and ignore them. I analyze myself 24/7 to figure out why I feel the way I do and what I need to do to feel how I’d like to, so there’s really no hiding from the sad thoughts and nostalgia. This is the first time in three years that I haven’t had someone to care for or focus my time on. I don’t really know what to do with myself now that I have the freedom I used to crave so badly. I guess now I realize how nice it is to have some company. I can’t geek out over things by myself and I’ll just talk myself in circles unless I have someone to bounce ideas off of. It’s just one of those evenings.